Are there times where you're really not sure why you are where you are? I don't think I'm the only person to really try to make heads or tails of why sometimes (especially at work) I can be totally "on it" and other times I seem a bit air-headed. Like something totally knocked me off the merry go round and I'm not even sure which direction I'm staring in.
And I think what makes me most crazy is that I kind of know what it is that knocks me around. Why I get sort of "A.D.D." I know that it is sort of a buzz word for people who can't seem to keep their crap together.
I pride myself on somehow managing a calendar that would make most people's heads spin. I'm not kidding when I say I have three jobs, a blog (which I contribute to regularly and go to events for) and two kids. I go to events and rarely stay at home for a whole night. I sort of think I'm missing something if I just sit at home (and I probably am).
But then there are times that I totally day dream. Times that I go shopping on the internet when I should be working. Times that I will call a friend and spend HOURS on the phone with them even if I know I don't have the time to "waste." I think about the trips I will take. I plot out what my life will look like years from now. And usually that happens in the most busy times so then I sort of stress myself out with so many things to do an bang myself up over what little I got done - especially right when I know I have a lot to do.
