I have been told on occasion that some people might be jealous a bit of the life that I lead. I am able to go to many events. My kids are well behaved. They do well in school and play sports....and being that I am divorced, I get every other weekend OFF of being a parent without having to feel bad about that. I can go out to clubs, go hiking or snowboarding - whatever my flight of fancy is.
I am only now figuring out how to be ok with my life too! I have been trying for so long to try to meld my life into what someone else thinks is textbook - or even trying to make me textbook. It will never work for me. I don't live that life. I am not happy with rules that someone else tries to impose on my life. I don't need them. I thought for a long long time that I did need to live my life like someone else. But now, I am coming to realize. That I am not that person.
I do get to do cool things. I DO them. I don't let life pass me by - MY life. The one I am meant to live. The one that makes me happy.
I struggle to find the things and people in my life that will add to my life and not require me to give up a piece of myself for them. I am still trying to figure out how my dreams really look. Who is there with me? Will I ever learn that or will I get to continue trying on different things until I find the right fit?
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