Trying to understand

I am trying with all my might to understand it. I can not. It is not mine to understand anyway. Maybe it just means I need to let it be. Leave it alone - like a dead animal along the side of the road. Something that at one time I thought was cute - but realize upon inspection that it really is nothing of the sort. 

I realize that it is nothing more than a lesson for me. Sometimes I think that the universe is conspiring for or against me. Most recently I saw a quote that says, "Being wise is the art of knowing what to overlook."  That has never been as true for me as it is right now. I am needing to overlook and overthrow my own thoughts - I have not had enough time to focus on what I need to focus on because there was something/one else in the way. It was not good for me. I couldn't see that until I was forced to.

But now I realize that it had little do to with me...